disappointment..

For th past two years, not even half of 9some came during my birthday celebration. though i may not show it out, but im really disappointed and disheartened. it really makes me reflect on myself. i really wonder am i really such a terrible friend that no one bother coming t celebrate my birthday w me. its okay if it happens once. BUT NO, it happend twice and this year too i guess. probably there wont even be a celebration this year. I tried so hard t plan for everyone and this is what i get in th end. When shanqi texted them justnow regarding wenliang and my birthday celebration, some dont even bother replying and worse still some claim that shes making their lives difficult. OKAY, FINE. since its so difficult then we shall stop all th celebrations that we are having. JIASHENG's birthday shall be th last one. more one celebrations. im really sick and tired of planning when everyone dont care about it.

throughout th whole of last year, we celebrated 9 birthdays w 9some and out of th 9 birthdays, all of it are planned by shanqi and i. no one actually take th initiative t plan it because they know that shanqi/elaine will be there t plan, we just wait can alr! so all of them will just have t turn up on that day and pay for th present and their job is done.

and for us, we have t text every single one of them and WAIT PATIENTLY for them t reply. and if some are not free on certain day, we have t change t another day and text again. yes, we may be a nuisance asking again and again but we are just trying our best t make sure that everyone can make it and th birthday boy/girl can be happier! on top of that, we have t find time t buy birthday present for th birthday boy/girl. YES, you guys, may be busy i understand but so are we, we have our own commitment as well. its not like as if we are very free. Im pissed cause it seems like some people turn up just for th sake t show face and not because they really have th heart t celebrate. take for example, th present . for so many birthdays, all they do is t pay money and thats all. no one actually bother asking what issit or give opinion on what t buy. and some just pay me on th spot in front of th birthday boy/girl. i know its okay t do that but seriously, this really show how insincere you are. its not ABOUT TH MONEY YKNOW, ITS NOT ABOUT TH PRESENT, ITS NOT ABOUT TH CELEBRATION,ITS TH THOUGHT THAT MATTERS. ask yourself la, how many of you go for celebration not because youre told t? if youre not told, will you bother planning instead? most probably not. guess some of you dont even remember when is our birthdays.

OKAY, enough said, i shall not go on further. its really amazing how strangers becomes GOOD FRIENDS and how good friends will eventually turn into strangers again. Two years ago, i was really foolish enough t think that i will still be very close w all my secondary school friends after we graduate...