Blessed.

I am really thankful and greatful t god for giving me such a wonderful life w many awesome people.. I have family that is supportive and friends who care. But somehow, I have been taking all of that for granted and didn't realize how blissful my life is.

Take example, my birthday..

I wasn't happy at all on my birthday because I was too much concern whether or not Timothy will plan any surprises for me etc. so, when clock strikes 12AM and well wishes start coming in, instead if feeling happy, I was sobbing like some mad girl because im too bothered by th fact that he didn't bother staying up till 12AM just t wish me a happy birthday. Was moody and down th entire day because there was no surprise from him. My mom even make an effort t bring us out for my birthday lunch but I'm just not being appreciative about it and was pulling a sad face th entire time out eating..

t think about it, im really blessed w awesome people who really thoughtful..

Aline made an effort t handmade a scrapbook for me..
Shanqi sent postcard and audio note for me just t make th way she send her wishes unique.
Audrey and co just came t my house t specially surprise me w a cake..
Terry prepared jelly for my birthday


But all I was concern about was him, him and just him..

Honestly, throughout this almost 1/2 year of being together, my world is just revolved about him, work and family. It's like 90% him, and 10% work and family t be exact.. I had totally neglected my friends and my personal life.  He takes control of everything i do, he is 24/7 asking what am I doing, 24/7 talking t me etc.. I'm just relying too much on him. That explains why I feel like my world gonna collapse when he said that we should just stay as friend just yet.. I broke down so many times. Cannot accept th fact that we have t keep a distance and all.  But I finally got enlightened and realize that life is not only about him.. There's many other elements that I missed out. Things like friends, family, school and all.. Not having him as someone special doesn't mean th end of th world.. I still have so many people who care for me. And so many things tht I should be concern about.  So i guess It's really time for me t slowly find myself back and be thankful of all th lil things in life..

Th cheerful and positive me will be back again!!

Anw, I'm so thankful for Aline who is there for me throughout these 2-3 painful weeks. Though not all advices are useful t me, I know she tried her best.. Thank you so much bbg! <3 p="">