I am really enjoying myself for these two weeks. With someone t shower me w love, accompany me where ever I go, drive me home and t work, planning surprises.. This is what I longed for.. I'm really thankful for these. Imstead of enjoying every moment now, some part of me is actually feeling scared.. Afraid that you will just leave anytime and leave me hanging.
Been having nightmares for th past few nights. Dreamt of th same person, dreamt of th same scenario. Reason is because I'm really fearful that he will leave.. ):
t be honest, I really think that it's my problem.. I have problem trusting people. I never fail t doubt everyone in my life. This includes my parents. I just can't trust anyone and will always put on guard no matter how close we are. Sometimes I just hate myself for being like that. SIGHS.
okay.. Enough said. Shall not dwell on this further. Probably I just need time t trust someone..
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